The Failure Pledge

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Laurence Olivier

Laurence Olivier
Photo by Allan Warren. CC BY-SA 3.0, via Wikimedia Commons.

What failed

In 1964, while running a new national theatre company and playing Othello, he began suffering panic attacks on stage rooted in a fear of forgetting his lines. He had to ask fellow actors not to look him in the eye. The attacks worsened over the following decade, constricting the muscles of his mouth and throat.

What happened next

He did not stop. He kept performing and kept running the company, controlling the panic with Valium for two years — until a colleague spotted that the drug was itself causing the memory lapses and persuaded him to quit it. He worked until his death.

The point

The fear never fully went away and he did the work regardless. He also got the remedy wrong for years, which is the honest version of iterating: you try a fix, it fails, someone tells you, you change it.

The sequence

2 documented failures, shown with the successes in between. Every entry carries its own source — the wins are part of the record, and leaving them out is how these stories get distorted.

  1. 1962

    Appointed the first director of a new national theatre company.

    successLaurence Olivier (Wikipedia)

  2. 1964

    Suffers stage fright for the first time in his career, at fifty-seven.

    failureLaurence Olivier (Wikipedia)

  3. 1965

    The filmed production earns four Academy Award nominations, including Best Actor.

    successLaurence Olivier (Wikipedia)

  4. 1970s

    The panic attacks worsen, constricting the muscles of his mouth and throat.

    failureAmerican Theatre

  5. 1972

    A co-star identifies the drug he is taking as the cause of his memory lapses, and he stops.

    successAmerican Theatre

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