Laurence Olivier

What failed
In 1964, while running a new national theatre company and playing Othello, he began suffering panic attacks on stage rooted in a fear of forgetting his lines. He had to ask fellow actors not to look him in the eye. The attacks worsened over the following decade, constricting the muscles of his mouth and throat.
What happened next
He did not stop. He kept performing and kept running the company, controlling the panic with Valium for two years — until a colleague spotted that the drug was itself causing the memory lapses and persuaded him to quit it. He worked until his death.
The point
The fear never fully went away and he did the work regardless. He also got the remedy wrong for years, which is the honest version of iterating: you try a fix, it fails, someone tells you, you change it.
The sequence
2 documented failures, shown with the successes in between. Every entry carries its own source — the wins are part of the record, and leaving them out is how these stories get distorted.
- 1962
Appointed the first director of a new national theatre company.
- 1964
Suffers stage fright for the first time in his career, at fifty-seven.
- 1965
The filmed production earns four Academy Award nominations, including Best Actor.
- 1970s
The panic attacks worsen, constricting the muscles of his mouth and throat.
- 1972
A co-star identifies the drug he is taking as the cause of his memory lapses, and he stops.
Sources
- Laurence Olivier: A Biography (American Theatre)
But his panic attacks in the last decade of his stage career—in which the muscles of his mouth and throat became constricted—grew increasingly severe.
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